Tuesday Twattles

I just realized that I have a lot to update everyone on. Here goes.

Tomorrow morning Chad has an appointment with a new Endocrinologist. I think I'm more excited than he is for this appointment. If you don't know, the hubs is a Type 1 diabetic(formerly known as a juvenile diabetic). He's had diabetes for 10 years, and has had his fair share of problems related to the extra sweetness he has. He finally started seeing an endocrinologist last year, and that physician has helped him tremendously. They were able to get him started on an insulin pump, and thus his blood sugar's have been much more stable. In addition to, and related to diabetes, Chad has Hypoglycemia Unawareness. Simply that means his body doesn't know when his blood sugar is too low. Most people know when their blood sugar gets around 70 or 60. Chad won't feel it until about 40(coma level) or lower. He's had some real issues with that in the past, and we have to keep a constant watch on his numbers. I rambling. I said all of that to say this. When we got his insulin pump, we purchased, out of pocket, a Continuous Glucose Monitor(CGM). His current endo is not trained to use these or teach patients about these. So, we found him another one that is. In addition to being an endo, she is also a Certified Diabetes Educator(CDE), and was a helicopter pilot in the army(that's just cool). The CGM can constantly monitor his numbers, and hopefully provide a little more stability to the incredibly unstable Type 1 diabetes. I'm excited for him to go see this new lady tomorrow. Their office is about an hour away from us, and the appt is at 8:30am, so he's not as excited as I am. Oh well, it's in his(and by proxy mine) best interest.

I go back to my regular OB(not the perinatologist) on Thursday. I have an appointment, and the regular 20 week ultrasound. I'm excited and anxious all at the same time. There are a lot of emotions that surround every OB appointment. It's really hard to explain. I haven't felt Jo moving since Saturday, so I'm not sure what we'll find once we get there. But, that's all in the Lord's hands anyway. I'm not sure if it's because I've been incredibly busy, and just haven't noticed her movements or if she's already gone. I'm surprisingly calm about all of this though. I'm a little on the high strung side, so I'm not really sure why this isn't bothering me yet. Just taking it as it come, 1 day at a time. I do desire your prayers regarding this appointment. I didn't see the point going any sooner, since I already had the appointment for this week. If she is gone or going, there's nothing I can do to stop or prevent it. We know the inevitable will come for us sooner or later as far as this pregnancy is concerned.

I think I have made it to a point where we will be able to have a funeral or burial service for her. That's something I need. I can't explain that either. It's just something I need to do for me.

OK, I didn't mean to totally kill your mood today. I'm sorry if I did. Just trying to be honest, and keep everyone updated on what's going on.

Mom, I really am OK today, don't worry. It's a good day.