Chad and Nikki

Johanna,


You would have been 3 months old by now.  How has that much time passed already?  I imagine that you would be smiling at Daddy, Clayton, and me.  And possibly Tram and Bobba(Gram and Poppa for all of ya'll that don't speak Clayton), Mawmaw and Pawpaw, and all your silly aunts and uncles.  I would guess that you would have started reaching for things and sleeping through the night.  It seems like we've missed a lifetime of things with you already.


Your ears would have been pierced with tiny little diamonds.  You would constantly have a bow in your hair.  And that hair I imagine it would be very light by now.  We were all amazed at how dark your hair was on your birthday.  Dresses and really cool shoes too.  I can't walk through the baby department(and I'm there a lot since Clayton is still has some baby needs), see the dresses and imagine how they would have looked on your little body.  Clayton was always a slim baby and imagine that you would have been too.  Both of you seemed to be made just like your daddy.  Tall and slim(unlike your mother who is neither tall nor slim).


I miss you more today than I did the day you were born.  How is that possible?  I don't know how all of these things work but I know my heart hurts more now for you.  I know what you're doing and I wouldn't bring you back to me for a king's ransom.  But the Johanna side of my heart is broken from missing you.


Enjoy your eternal day with the Lord.  I don't know if you have realization of our world or not.  If you do please know that your Mommy and Daddy(and a whole list of other people) love you very much.  We are fortunate to have you be our daughter.  We're proud of you.


Love always,
Mommy