Friday, June 18, 2010


It's late and I really should be getting in the bed.  As usual we have a busy Saturday and Sunday.  I just wanted to mention one thing.

Today I picked up the book "I Will Carry You" by Angie Smith.  She is the author of the blog Bring The Rain.  I really should be studying the various bones in the body but I just could not bring myself to do this today.  I had to start this book.  I've wanted to read it for a while now.  And knowing me I will probably have it finished by the end of the weekend.  I can do without the sleep for a few days.  It's a soothing balm to be reminded(because it's easy for Satan(and our human minds) to let us believe that we are on this journey completely alone) that God has chosen others to walk a similar journey to ours.  Why He has chosen any one of us I have no idea.  But He did.

My point to this is to say that I regularly wonder(worry maybe) that my daughter will be forgotten as the months and years pass.  Chad tells me I imagine things(and he's probably way more right than I would care to admit) and that the things that I perceive around me are not really as they seem.  He really is quite handy to have around.  Reassuring words from those around me are wonderful and very kind and thoughtful.  But they can not completely ease the Mommy part of my heart. 

I don't say these things to illicit kind or reassuring words from ya'll.  I say them to be honest and transparent.  And so that I can share with you the peace and reassurance that God has given me once again this evening.  His timing is so amazing.  I don't know why I ever doubt His sovereignty(and yet I do over and over).

I read this tonight........

"But now thus saith the LORD that created thee, O Jacob, and he that formed thee, O Israel, Fear not: for I have redeemed thee, I have called thee by thy name; thou art mine.  When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee.  For I am the LORD thy God, the Holy One of Israel, thy Saviour: I gave Egypt for thy ransom, Ethiopia and Seba for thee.  Since thou wast precious in my sight, thou hast been honourable, and I have loved thee: therefore will I give men for thee, and people for thy life.  Fear not: for I am with thee:"  Isaiah 43:1-5

He redeemed me.  He called me  The waters will not overflow me.  The fires will not burn me.  Why? Because He is God.  Because I am precious in His sight.  Because He's with me.

And these words completely reassure and calm my heart. 

Will I need new words tomorrow?  Absolutely.  Will God give me those words?  Absolutely.


Jamie Lynn said...

There is a song by Lauren Talley called He Will Carry You. This post reminds me of it.

Jennifer said...

Isn't it wonderful to know Him. Isn't it wonderful to cast our cares on Him. Isn't He wonderful! Thanks again Nikki, such an encouragement!

Monica said...

I so needed this today.

Kelly said...

Amen! Thank you for sharing! I needed to read this today!

Valerie said...

Again thank you for sharing with us your thoughts. I too have felt this way many times and God continues to comfort me. It's a struggle day by day to see all the "plans" in this but God sees us through this awful journey. I just wrote a blog about how awful of a time we had on a vacation because it was just one of those days. Thank you again for sharing today!

Holly said...

Isn't it just an awesome book? She did such a great job. I have worried of the being forgotten too. But I know she will never be forgotten by us and our Heavenly Father and I guess that is what matters the most.