Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Adios 2009

I am so ready for 2010.  I'm not wishing my life away, I'm just ready for a change.  It seems like the changing of the calendar represents a clean start.

I won't lie to you, 2009 was a hard year.  There was so much more to sending Johanna to be with Jesus than just her death and funeral service.  There were a lot of emotions, thoughts, and ideas that I had to, and still am, working through.  I'm always amazed at God's timing.  Had I known 365 days ago all that 2009 would hold I don't think I could have done it.  But God always sees fit to send things our way on His time table.  And I think it's nice to not know what's coming.

2009 didn't just have hard days(and there were a lot of them).  There were also some very happy times as well.  The Nissan Quest in Wyoming is a joy I will never forget.  Chad buying me 3 different kinds of mascara for Johanna's funeral is something I will never forget.  Opening our glass door and have it crumble in my hands is something I will never forget.  All of these and so many more things bring belly rolling laughter.

Even though I don't want to relive 2009 I am more thank thankful for all that it has taught me.  I'm thankful for every experience God has placed in my path. 

What will 2010 hold?  Only time shall tell.


Monica said...

A year ago I could not have fathomed what 2009 would hold for us. I just cannot begin to describe it. I know that I am a completely different person than I was this time last year. So I too am looking forward to a fresh start.

Jamie Lynn said...

I love you. And I'm super duper proud of you and inspired by you. For the amazing and strong person you are. You and Chad both. I thank God for you buys.

Simply Donna...... said...

Looking on the funny side - I love that Chad bought 3 different kinds of mascara - he didn't want you to have a meltdown on him. He gets lots of credit for trying, hehehe. I would never and I mean never send Jimmy after mascara - he would say what is mascara?

Anywho, Love ya and hang in there. I am always here if you need to talk, rant and rave, or have a meltdown with. The thought of you and I having a meltdown together is hilarious because we both have such a weird sense of humor.

Preachersgirl3491 said...

The Quest in the Quest was awesome. I was just thinking about it today, when you put the DVD in for Clayton and the whole van was silent for the first time in a week. It made me laugh for some reason.

Stay at Home Mommy said...

me too! I know my year is a breeze compared to yours, but I am ready for a new start. I am also excited to see what new things this year holds. And dont you just love sending husbands to the store for you, you never know what you will end up with, its a suprise!