I finished a book yesterday titled "Even Now". It was a book about love and redemption that is both lost and found. I woke up at 6am this morning with this on my mind. What do I know.........even now? Not much, but there are a few things I know for sure.
- Even now, when my heart is breaking I know my God loves me.
- Even now, when I am unlovable(hard to believe I know), my husband loves me.
- Even now, when I feel completely alone, I have a wonderful group of family and a few close friends that are doing everything in their power to make sure I know I'm cared for and thought about.
- Even now, God is teaching me more about love and compassion than I ever wanted to know. He's slowly melting my cynical, skeptical, heart of stone.
- Even now, I see God using Johanna to still work in my life and in the life of others around me.
- Even now, I know my God will never leave me.
- Even now, I'm God's child.
- Even now, my daughter is safe with the Father. Of course I miss her, and my arms feel empty without her. And at this point, nothing can replace that feeling. But, I wouldn't dare speak of bringing her back to me. She is having the best eternal day praising and rejoicing our Lord. It certainly would be nice to be there with her.
- Even now, I wouldn't change anything since April.
- Even now, I would make the same decisions again. I would carry my baby girl to term and cherish all 63 of her precious minutes.
- Even now, I'm thankful God gave her to our family. I'm thankful I have a daughter. And I'm thankful I'll be with her again one day(hopefully sooner than later).
6 comments:
I read the same book just recently!
You should really read the sequel too, called 'Ever After'.
Thanks for sharing your heart. Beautiful post.
hey you. i know it's still creepy but i kind of need you to know...that THIS is how often and much and when i think of you guys. I had yet ANOTHER dream about you. it was my family and yours. we were out to dinner. I know i've neglected to write you as much as i've been thinking about you but i hope you know you are always on my heart. i will try to be better. love you guys.
I will have to read that book. Thank you for sharing this! I am glad that "even now" you know all those things
Hm, I bet taht's a good book.
Your heart isn't cynical to me.
I love it and you:)
I haven't heard of that book. It sounds really interesting. I feel the same!
This is such a good post. It's such a blessing to see you counting your blessings instead of dwelling on the negative. Thank you for sharing your heart. I am praying for you everyday!
{{hugs}}
Kelly
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