Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Onions and Cake

Grief is a funny thing.  In the words of Shrek, it has layers. 

One day the world is sunny and roses.  Nothing bothers you and you can take anything "with a grain of salt".  But there are those days when the world is a giant thunderstorm.  Everything bothers you and the smallest thing sets you on edge.  Why is that?  I am 100% positive that it's just part of the process.  And it's all normal. acceptable, and to be expected.  That doesn't really make it any easier though.

I'm starting to get back in to a routine.  And on one hand I'm very thankful for that.  But on the other hand, that routine, because it's the same as pre-Johanna, makes it seem like everything that happened last year was just a dream.  And I don't like that feeling at all.  Because it wasn't a dream.  It was real.  The things that I went through were real and they really happened.

I'm a different person than I was this time last year.  And I suppose that's a good thing.  If you aren't changed by your circumstances then what's the point?  I feel like I've aged(not necessarily matured or become more wise) more in the last year than I have in my entire life.  For some reason Johanna has made me feel like an adult(even though I still don't act it).

So maybe in the words of Donkey grief is like cake.  It still has layers but they are sweet and "everybody loves cake".  The independent ingredients of cake are actually pretty gross, but when you mix all together just right it's absolutely wonderful.  All the "interesting" things that I'm learning on Grief Ave will mix together to be something wonderful.  I'm sure of it.

One more thing(totally unrelated).

Harris Teeter has Super Doubles starting tomorrow.  That means they will double coupons up to $1.98.  So if you have a coupon for $1 off it becomes $2 off and likewise $1.50 would become $3.00.  They always double coupons up to .99cents, so this deal is even greater.  Just be sure to check their coupon policy in detail before you shop.  That's a pretty awesome deal.  If you shop the items that are on sale you should actually get some items for **FREE**!!!


Jennifer said...

your couponing advice just makes me laugh, sista!!!! hope your day gets better, still loving following your story, such a blessing to me!!! love~ya jennifer

Holly said...

I totally get what you are saying b/c I feel the same!